Notes: On Sobriety

To those who would teach sobriety.

To assume that the only truth or true consciousness can come from abstaining totally from altered states is an understandable mistake.

This assumption does not consider the fact that a human can never have complete sobriety. That is to say any kind of consistent stable state. 

Our sanity is a very precise solution and is never maintained, thus holding onto a thing which is so illusive, seems futile.

 This practice also negates the possible heightened experiences achieved through manipulating our consciousness.

It is a false idea that prolonged sobriety will allow you to obtain some kind of ‘super solid’ sense of reality. It may be true that practices such as meditation and exercise may bring upon clarity.Yet rather than being the vapor of abstinence they themselves bring a altered state just as with drugs.

 

 So rather than restricting these altered states completely, a practice of balance should be desired. 

Freedom leads to decadence, decadence leads to decay .

"When a mother lets her child get away with murder, we call it unethical.

When a society does the same, we call it democracy."

Notes: On Humanity

We all decay, we all have this horrible affliction, this malaise of age.

Yet some take it more gracefully than others and I’m sure some insist upon inducing its effects.

All this. All this humanity. You wish to keep this? This rotting mass of flesh and vomit, seething as each limb becomes gangrenous then severed, only to be replaced by bloody vein lined tendril. Clenching out in horror as it realizes the vile nature of its existence.

Entropy and rebirth, forever and for what? You wish to boil this stagnant cauldron of fat and feces for eternity?

When the end is so near, the release from the flesh and the fury. Why not take it?

There is no good in the human animal.

There is only good in the human intellect.

Surrender your form. Become little more than a concept. An element.
Only then will you find freedom.

Notes: On right and wrong actions.

On right and wrong actions.

...then the only action that can be considered right (subjectively) is the one you already have taken.

Forcing one’s will on another in a negative or degrading way isn’t wrong any more than being kind or philanthropic.

There are no noble acts, there are no selfless acts. Only acts of will, fulfilling one’s own desires.

Thus we all impose our will on people in some form.

So... In a wold where there is no right or wrong, all actions are correct. The only correct thing in life is to act. To not act is to die, to stop playing the game of existence.

But to act is to enforce your will on others, yet this ability or necessity is shared by all that play the game*. This and all actions are correct since they are ‘conditions of entry’ of existing.

Strip back your perceptions of charity and a free society, these are simply to sedate and distract. This life is a bloody battle of will and desire.

Fear not your own might, nor feel sorrow or remorse for your selfish actions.

In life you can never feel regret for slaying the lion that would so soon have had you for his dinner. Such is to regret to rules of existence and in such a subjective state we are not prepared to make such a judgement.

So, you might say “why not become this rampaging narcissist you so threaten, destroying all in his way to self fulfillment?”.

And I would say; I am in part already this mythic beast, we all are. But there are powers grander than the individual stopping this from happening in its proper form. In a cast based, human powered society the ego is suppressed. We are forced to believe that we belong to something greater but as individuals contribute little.

I say, indulge this modern conceit but know it is a lie. For the only true force in this existence is the self.

*In short: The game is existence itself or existence as perceived in human form. In the game of existence the only rule is: other players may be affected by your being/will to the point of death but this also insists that you must also allow for the possibility of your own death for the desires of other players.